I have always believed that there is only one ultimate and divine
source and it is LOVE!
The feelings associated with this state are profound
love, joy and bliss.
We all long to re-connect with source because we all came from
a place of love, joy and bliss (soul consciousness). We can touch
it through meditation but we can only truly access it by fully opening
IT IS THE ULTIMATE YES TO OURSELVES!
I remember when I first became fully aware that this love,joy
and bliss was deepest within myself. It was 1987 and I was in a
relationship with someone who I loved as deeply and intimately as
my twin. Her name was Rachel . She had two twin daughters and she
allowed me to love her as deeply as a twin because she was being
loved that deeply by her twin daughters. There came a time to let
go in that relationship and when I did, from a place of love and
accountability, I felt the deep terror of being separated from my
twin at birth. I completely surrendered to that terror, which lasted
only a few moments, and suddenly my mind seemed to open up and I
- I had just felt the terror of letting go of my twin
- I had obviously loved Rachel as deeply as my twin
- I could now love that deeply without any fear and
- I became aware of a tremendous sense of love,joy and bliss welling
up from beneath that terror!
My next step , only a few days later, was to totally surrender
to that love,joy and bliss with the help of a spiritual masseuse
(Linda) who realized I was healing myself and did not get in the
way. It was a free fall into my original source! All I did was surrender!
The first session lasted over three hours and she became my twin
in utero as we held and moved together while on the table . After
that session she exclaimed "Allen, you and your twin were absolutely
one". The second session I fully claimed my true essence , intention
and purpose . The third and final session was my full surrender
to source as I celebrated and acknowledged the people who I have
deeply loved, especially my grandfather, while feeling nothing but
total love, joy and bliss! I remember leaping off the table, stark
naked, and exclaiming to Linda "I am totally in touch with my deepest
joy,bliss,intention and purpose!"
Looking back now , I realize I was totally in touch with SOURCE
! This is why 80-90% of my clients emotionally shut down in the
womb or shortly after birth. They know I can see and connect with
them at source.
Recently I let go of a great love, when it became time to let go,
by totally opening my heart to her at the risk of being completely
rejected - knowing that part of her also deeply loved me. IT WAS
THE ULTIMATE YES TO MYSELF for in completely opening my heart, going
beyond any fear of rejection, I became one with SOURCE! Almost immediately
I felt a deep sense of joy,bliss,freedom and KNOWING. Once again,
my mind seemed to open up and I clearly saw the truth of our relationship
- which I later shared with her.
This deep sense of love,joy and knowing became more apparent when
I attended a wedding the next day, where I sang for the bride and
groom - both former clients of mine. I could feel a marked change
in my presence - I was grounded in source. I remember driving home
that night saying to myself "I am," "I am", but what I was really
saying is I AM ONE WITH SOURCE.
Being one with source is the ultimate relationship and sense of
community. I KNOW I am part of something much larger than myself
and I KNOW I am being supported by that community. To re-connect
with source you must let go of the ego's need to control and protect
and, instead, completely surrender to love by fully opening your
heart - at the risk of everything.
The path of the heart takes great courage but the payoff is immense!
For when you are one with source, as I am, you are one with a divine
loving plan (God) and you are finally in sync with your true destiny.
The question is always - Do you have the courage to go beyond your
head , your need to control or just going through the motions in
life and, instead, fully surrender to the fire and passion of love,
allowing yourself to willingly and joyfully burn and finally become
one with source and a KNOWING fragment of life's heart ? How can
we possibly resist this call from within? How can we possibly resist
this immense love,joy and bliss that is deepest within us? How can
we possibly resist the path of the heart? How can we possibly resist
love - THE ONLY TRUE PATH TO SOURCE!
ONLY LOVE HEALS